Saturday, March 29, 2008!
fana HandWritten on; 3:37 AM
HEY!
hehe.life is really hard to cope with. with dis and that. ive been busy with alot of things nowadays.im struggling with my sch work now,i have been failing the subjects i was good in.i guess in life, things dont always turn out the way u want it to be, u have to chase for it, and chase it hard to achieve what u desire.esp if its smtg impt for u.dont take advantage of it even tho u know it will stay as it is forever, but somtimes, pple change, things change, and thats when, ur life change.
i guess i can say i have a very complicated but at the same time interesting life.i dont have a same routine everyday, or every week, or month.its always changes everyday.its really unexpecting. but we have to stay strong with the pple we care about, give them all ur trust and the will sure to stay with u even tho its hard for them to take. its a burden everyone has to carry.its not smtg unusual but its smtg everyone who is anyone have gone thru at least once in their lifetime.ive heard this line before sumwhere sumhow," Pple who do not succeed are those who refuse to accept changes to their life cos changes is ur life." and i really find it meaningful(: i hope it is so to u too(:
byeeeee! take care(:
Thursday, March 20, 2008!
fana HandWritten on; 6:17 AM
HEY DERE!
hahahahahahha
super duper long time never blog alrd!
well, firstly my team got into national rounds!
then, i jus got back my results and OMG !
and lastly, i love HIM!
im really sry if i cant spend as much time with you rite now.
i am really busy withschwork and stuff, im not purposely doing it, really.
hai, if only anyone would try to understand me.
i really cant live like this.its really hard.i know i have not been a good gf to u cos i have been spending too much time with my cca but uts not my choice! i cant make this decision! i have to be fair to everyone around me.i tried, ok, i tried to make everyone around me happy being mith me but i think im trying too much that pple are over expecting me to do stuff which i cant manage and if i cant do it, they woulg think bad of me.seriously, i would really appreciate it isomeone were to come up to me and sayy, i know what you are goign thru rite now. juggling between 3 important things in my life.i think im cariong more about the pple around me until i dont care about my own self.how i feel, how i look, how i do in sch OR in LIFE.
i really feel like going to sumwhere with the pple i care and just let everything go.just let it all out.even my family dont understand me.hai...why is life so unfair to me.everyday, i go to sch with a smile hoping to hear good news everytime but everytime its smtg hurtful but i still keep my smile cos i know this smile will make some pple around me feel good.altho deep2 inside, i dont feel good.
